If any soul had forgone suicide only to crack... If any soul had forgone suicide only to crack under the
humans' torture, they would not need me nowMy death would have been mercifully swift
Oddly, I couldn't bring myself to hope for a quick end, though, or to try to effect that outcome
It would be easy to do, even without doing the deed myselfI would only have to tell them a
lie–pretend to be a Seeker, tell them my colleagues were tracking me right now, bluster and
threatenOr tell them the truth–that Melanie lived on inside me, and that she had brought me
here
They would see another lie, and one so richly irresistible–the idea that the human could live on
after implantation–so tempting to believe from their perspective, so insidious, that they
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believe I was a Seeker more surely than if I claimed itThey would assume a trap, get rid of me
quickly, and find a new place to hide, far away from here
You're probably right,Melanie agreed
But I wasn't in pain yet, and so either form of suicide was hard to embrace; my instinct for
survival sealed my lipsThe memory of my last session with my Comforter–a time so civilized it
seemed to belong to a different planet–flashed through my headMelanie challenging me to
have her removed, a seemingly suicidal impulse, but only a bluffI remembered thinking how
hard it was to contemplate death from a comfortable chair
Last night Melanie and I had wished for death, but death had been only inches away at
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timeIt was different now that I was on my feet again
I don't want to die, either,Melanie whisperedut maybe you're wrongMaybe that's not why
they're keeping us aliveI don't understand why they would She didn't want to imagine the
things they might do to us–I was sure she could come up with worse than Ihat answer would
they want from you that bad?
I'll never tellNot you, not any humanBut then, I wasn't in pain yet
Another hour had passed–the sun was directly overhead, the heat of it like a crown of fire on
my hair–when the sound changedThe grinding steps that I barely heard anymore turned to
echoes ahead of meJeb's feet still crunched against the sand like mine, but someone in front of
us
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“Careful, now,” Jeb warned me
I hesitated, not sure what I was watching for, or how to watch with no eyesHis hand left my
back and pressed down on my head, telling me to duck
He guided me forward again, and I heard our footsteps make the same echoing soundThe
ground didn't give like sand, didn't feel loose like rockIt was flat and solid beneath my feet
The sun was gone–I could no longer feel it burn my skin or scorch my hair
I took another step, and a new air touched my faceThis was
stagnant–Imoved intoitThe dry desert wind was goneThis air was still and coolerThere was
the faintest hint of moisture to it, a mustiness that I could both smell and taste
There were so many
omega quartz questions in my mind, and in Melanie'sShe wanted to ask hers, but I kept
silentThere was nothing either of us could say that would help us now
“Okay, you can straighten up,” Jeb told me
I raised my head slowly
Even with the blindfold, I could tell that there was no lightIt was utterly black around the
edges of the bandannaI could hear the others behind me, shuffling their feet impatiently,
waiting for us to move forward
“This way,” Jeb said, and he was guiding me againOur footsteps echoed back from close
by–the space we were in must have been quite smallI found myself ducking my head
instinctively
We went a few steps farther, and then we rounded a sharp curve that seemed to turn us back
the way we'd
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